The Sea Black The sea rhythms Still the town sounds And muted lights blink In the whispering rainfall. The night-gulls cry, Lost in their Sehnsucht. Carried on a plaintive wind Hidden in the darkness. The pier creaks another year, Fearful of winter storms. Splintered and slowly yielding to Relentless, unforgiving waves. An empty promenade where Echoes of summer children, Hide behind shuttered stalls, Waiting for the spring tides. He recalls he was once t

Winter's Tears I cried tears, Stalactite formed On cheeks encrusted With winter thought. Sadness buried In the first snows. Drifting and lost, A whiteout of memories. And the tears Ice carved to A crystalline carapace. Where all shine Had dulled to blackness And light erased. The tears layered Strata scored and Hardened in the Freezing rock-winds. Biting and bitter. Winter's tears left A permanent scar. No thaw in the daylight. ______________________

Because This Must Be. Why from the olive dark sea The plaintive waves never cease. Why from the darkest clouds The rain falls indeterminate. Why when the long shadows cast The chill winds take away warmth. Why when the first snow dusts The happiness melts immediate. Why when when the autumn mists The shrouded trees part of leaf. Why when the dawn dew forms The grass remains unnoticed. Why when the moon sunlight chased The stars sparkle fades. Because this must

Mirror Dark A mirror stare into the abyss, Surface scored with the black-lines. Drawn to the well of emptiness, But the mirror refuses to reflect. Casting only darkness. Nothing left. Nothing left. Drained of everything you are, A palpable increasing dolour. Eyes scanning the void For light that ever faded. Casting only darkness. Nothing left. Nothing left. _________________________________ Grief. Bereavement. Loss. Sadness. Depression. Loneliness. Some days are much har

Lay / Lie Lay down low, Embrace the floor. I'm lying, I'm lying, Can't lay any lower. Can't lie Anymore. __________________ Some days you feel sh!t. Today is one. Depression never announces itself. It just arrives. And it's hard. #sadness #depression #grief #loss #mentalhealth

Weather Steps Step outside and wait the clouds Hung so low you can scoop them Into your shaking hands that Tremble with fear like thunder. Step slowly beneath the blanket Of grey banked clouds that Threaten to burst, but pause In brooding, mocking disdain. Step into the cold winds That buffet and sting with The promise of winter to come And not once relent. Step in anxious trepidation, Until the deluge breaks And soaks your fears into your skin, But never washes them away

Pages remain blank Letters scattered on the winds Words left unspoken #sadness #loss #grief #bereavement #letters #words #thoughts #haiku

Letters I wrote you a letter, But words scattered, Lost in the winds. I wrote you a letter, But the ink ran, Smudged by tears. I wrote you a letter, Each sentence punctuated By unending memories. I wrote you a letter Sent it post haste, Before the pages returned to blank. I wrote you a letter Tried to finish it with a comma, But it finished with a Full Stop. _________________________________ Letter to Milla Not a day goes by without thoughts of my beautiful daughter

No Longer Present Wind echoed memories Left the streets sad and empty No longer present Clouds gathered to grey Their weeping swept the streets clean No longer present The sun hid ashamed The streets shivered cold and damp No longer present And with the nightfall The streets faded to darkness No longer present #loss #sadness #grief #bereavment

Conversation With Your Memory How have you been? (The leaves rustled in the breeze) What have you been up to? (The shadows danced in the sunlight) I miss you very much (The dark clouds appeared overhead) I'll come again next week (The sun faded to a cold wind) Speak to you soon (The silence fell like raindrops) _________________________________ So many things I want to tell you. So many things I want to say. So many things I know now. Since you passed and

Broken Hill Dusk arrives On Broken hill Dying of the light Unwavering still. Shadow space Present unoccupied That gaping hole Our saddened lives. Wind rush screams At blackening clouds Rain spattered runnels Channel sobbing sounds. Owl shocked screech Foxes yip, yap, yelp Caterwaul wails Drown cries for help. Save this day! Do not let it turn to night. A life that day too faded With the sun death, darkness plight. Plunged to the black cloak Hamstrung, limping, lame. Wea

Hope deserted me on a distant shore Tide weary, pebble strewn and waves implored, Do not stand upon this cold listless beach, Watching each breaking crest, fall out of reach. The seabirds will mock and caw in disdain As they spy tears that mix with spray and rain. And winds begin to sound their mournful wail While the clouds spit and sting with raging hail. Face the sea, shingle groans and constant sighs Where the bitter bones, frozen marrow lie. And walk away from the advanc

A bench by the river, Soft flow with birdsong And winds blowing an unseasonal cold, Amongst clouds that languidly float Reflected in the river calm. Dogs pass on eager walks. Or curious, appear by my side uninvited, A sniff and a cocked leg and not even a goodbye. The owners cock an eyebrow And cast a hurried hello. The joggers and walkers Dodge the cyclists and talkers, Jumping at insistent bell rings That chime with the cathedral As the hour moves to eleven.

A face flickers Flame shone and memory lit Dancing in the shadows Gentle smiles cracked to laughter That brought light and warmth. Yet now the grey smoke drifts Evaporating into nothing No trace of the remembered face Just the cold and dark of shadow After the laughter stopped. #sadness #loss #grief #bereavement #light #dark

Trees and Shadows I remember when we walked Under shaded trees and dappled sunlight Your hand held tight in mine. But now I walk through shadows Shivering in their chill sadness And your hand is only air and memories _____________________________ You remember the times when you were together. You recall each moment. You feel the hand still in yours. Even when those times, that precious hand, have become air and memories. Grief is an unforgiving partner. You turn a corner

Faded Shadows When you left you took your shadow with you. And once your shadow had faded to sunlight, I knew the darkness would descend. For while a shadow is of no substance, It contained every part of you. It confirmed you were still here. Where your shadow once fell Tears fall to evaporate in the unforgiving sun, And now only memories appear as shadows. #grief #loss #sadness #bereavement #shadows #darkness

Night Memories So come gather your memories Swirling in the night air. Await the stillness of dreams, Where silence greets you. Let the darkness be the canvas For every colour past. Peel back those saddening layers. Expose the happiness buried beneath the grieving. A dormant happiness, Ready for reawakening. Polish those memories to a glittering. And reveal the healing. _____________________________ When you live with grief, the sadness builds in layers. It piles higher

The Sea Wastes The greyscale and pallid skies Pitifully stared upon the sea wastes. Turbulent, unending and saddened calls Wave upon mournful wave collapsing Onto a silent shore, bereft and lifeless. Where single cries absorbed to shingle memory. The laughing gulls patrolled the windswept seafront, Mocking the silence, piercing the sea memories. Oh happy shores! When sunlight was warmth And life. And the waves were an infinite pleasure. Not each wave that endlessly b

Memories in Dawn Light Did you not see the sun rise? Or feel the night breath? Did you not listen to the dawn song? Or disturb the silver dew drops? Did you not witness the sky in colour dance? Or hear the leaf welcome in gentle breeze? No. You did not. For you are the light of dawn And sun painted skies. For you are the dew drop tears And the wind that breathes life to memories. I saw, I listened, I felt everything that morning. Though you had gone, The morn

Darkness and Light To emerge in light, You need to first face darkness. Shadows always fade. _____________________________ An off colour day today mentally. A struggle to function and find motivation. Trying to counter the negative thoughts. But being aware of these thoughts, acknowledging them and finding ways to cope and lessen their impact helped. A brief bicycle ride, the tang of cold air on my face, the sound of birdsong, the peace and silence and stillness of